My next step was figuring out what action to take. This
collage represented the two paths I saw available to me. Leading up
to the fork is Pain and Anger. I sit between the two choices, head
in my hands heavy with the decision I needed to make. To the left is
the unknown: Loving and Risk, ending in a sunrise filled with Happiness.
To the right is the path of security: Family and Safe, ending in a
cloudy dark woods of Sadness. I put family on this side, because that
is what I felt I would lose if I separated. I would no longer be a
family. I was right. All my in-laws turned their backs on me. I remember
asking Jordan which path he would take and he said the safe path. As
I write this I tear up. It was not an easy choice to make.
August 4, 2015